Eleven-eleven p.m.

On my bed reading this book Sze May let me borrow. 

It’s called The Bride Stripped Bare. Very enticing book. Very.

It’s basically about a married couple that’s not doing too well. She finds out about an affair her husband was having with one of her very best friends.  It’s written in the form of a diary and it talks about her newly found sexual adventures and a rejuvenation of long lost love.

Here’s an excerpt on how she finds emptiness:

“An emptiness rules at its core, a rottenness, a silence when one of you retires to bed without saying goodnight, when you eat together without conversation, when the phone’s passed wordlessly to the other.  An emptiness when every night you lie in the double bed, restlessly awake, astounded at how closely hate can nudge against love, can win around it sinuously like a cat. An emptiness when you realise that the loneliest you’ve ever been is within a marriage, as a wife.”

Wow.  I need some …

So you are leaving to another place. Not far from here, but far from us.  There’s so many things I want to say. Should have said. But never did.

Know though you were never a mistake nor a disaster.  You were one with me. =) Let’s see if my letter to you changes things.

This song is for you.

I have a friend named Wennie from the US.  She’s a really sweet girl and last year she was diagnosed with something bad and we were all scared she was going to not make it.  She was in hospital for few months and the doctors didn’t know what was wrong with her.  They thought it was cancer and it showed symptoms of it.  I found out about her through her blog where many of her readers were continuously supporting her, myself included. 

She got better as the weeks and months passed and I’m happy to say that she’ll be coming to Malaysia soon so I’ll get to see her for the first time. 

After my trip to the hospital and finding out my results, I kind of know what she went through now and the only thing you have to do is keep focused on recovering and having the best outlook of life.

(Hope you don’t mind me putting this up wen, but your such an inspiration! ) =D

I have this gift.  Many people have it too actually. It’s the ability to mind-fuck yourself to a point where you think you are gonna die.  Yes, it happens.  And surprisingly it happens to many of us males.  See. It doesn’t just fall into the female category.  Us ding dongs do have our shining moments.

I went and visited the hospital today. I’m scared.

Woooo Finally I’m in the new love shack! hahah

It’s a room with a pool view and I must say cleaning it was an entirely devasting bitch of a chore. The ex housemate clearly was born with no hygiene gene implanted into his system.  I was utterly grossed out when I opened up the doors.  Shame I wasn’t able to take a picture. You’d be grossed out too, but then I’d just feel guilty sharing the pain with you.

Here’s how it is now after a week of cleaning it spotless and adding in my own charms. =D

(Thats the left corner of my room.  It’s where I’d usually play my guitar or read a nice book.  The curtains, with the sun out, gives off a very distinct red glow into the room.  It makes it look like a brothel room. Me likey!

(This is a just another pic)

(And finally thats my bed. Well it’s called the LOVE COUCH by my housemates. Why? Cuz with one bang it folds down into a bed ever so smoothly.)

Hahah not really. It’s actually Marley and Me. You know that movie? I highly recommend you watch it. It has a lot of life lessons with a dash of comedy and a dash of sadness.  Dash dash dash.

But to personalize things, it made me realize  a few things in life.  One. My cat is really old now! I worry about him a lot and I hope I can spend more time with him. Two. I myself am not that old.  Watching the movie just made me feel young again and you know young adults such as myself should be on the prowl and getting into trouble.  That last bit seems to follow me quite often actually.

And Three. Doing what you always wanted to be doing.  I’m doing it!  I love what I do and I can see myself go further and making a huge difference! Now all I need is someone to share it with! Yeah …yeah… Marley and Me was right! You need to find the right person to be with who shares the same ideals like you. Otherwise you’ll end up like Grogan’s best friend, a charmer but lonely.  Ecks.

I’ll be moving into my new place soon! Wooo I’m super excited.  There’s lots of things I want to do now.  I shall be moving in with two of my female colleagues. Hmmm isn’t this interesting. Eleh…I’m so gonna be ear- raped. =(

Sheryl is a cup cake master so I hope to help her out soon and our passions for cooking might just result in us opening up a small delivery service within the apartments.  Wonkayyy is our food entertainer and will give us feedback!

I might be getting a second job as a part time college lecturer at Sunway. I wonder if I should take up the offer or not.  Food and Beverage lecturer??!!  What the hell am I gonna talk about. Plus the timings…hmmm shall venture into this later on maybe. 

Ish….dating scene is drying up this year. So far no dates which I’m quite happy about. I’m still sticking to my resolution of no dating unless necessary.  Okay lets be honest here… I had a total of 5 dates last year…all…horribly twisted…but a good lesson nonetheless.  finally i can use cupcakes and wonkey as a barrier if anybody tries to go after me…muahahahahah. damn…i’m so lame…

Ouuu I've finally had my first dream in months and it was really freaky.  For some reason I dreamt that my new car all of a sudden went from being right handed to left handed. Maybe that's because I miss my pajero haha. 

But the dream that followed made me kinda sad.  I dreamt of you. It's been such a long time since I dreamt of you or even thought of you.  Let see, how did it go. How I met you in my dream I have no idea. But you lived in an apartment and you were living with a guy that didn't treat you well.  He was like a gangster living on the edge and doing a lot of drug deals and always had a bodyguard with me (who happened to be black!)  The place you lived in was a bit shabby but well enough to do.  AND there were monkey everywhere!! Small ones...and big ones that looked like tigers. Yes...monkey-tigers. I think this reminded me of the Wizard of Oz.  I'm watching too many movies I think.

When we talk there was alot of sadness in your eyes and you were always looking for a chance to escape but could never find any.  Anyways in the end we drove off together like in the movie Grease….yes a very weird dream indeed.

I sometimes think to myself. Did I make the right choices in life?  Was it always going to be this hard to keep secrets and to manipulate others. Hmm....I shouldn't play with fire but I just had my best intentions.  Ahhh....I remember saying this to myself.  "Sometimes giving candy to a baby just because it's cute doesn't mean it will be happy."

Practice what you preach and the preaching will practice by itself.  Yeah..didn't make much sense to me at first but I think I get its concept.  It's going to be 1 year since I've come back from the UK. 

Have I achieved a lot?

Have I driven out all my demons from the past? 

Am I a better person? 

Will I be a better person? 

Will I survive next year and hopefully find someone to be with? 

Will I ever be happy?

Will I ever have the courage to say "I Love You" once again?  Or will I even fall in love next year?  

Have I proven to myself that I'm a man and that I know how to take care of myself?  Take care of others?

Will I still continue with my ideals of "treat everyone equally, but treat women like diamonds?"

Will I be able to make new friends? 

Am I still charming? Was I ever charming?  Can I be charming?

What do others think of me?  Am I a jerk? A fool? A prince? A dog? Maybe even a two faced bastard.

Can I smile the next morning even after betraying all that I've worked for? 

Trust me...I have 1000 more questions like this running through my head.

But for now, I think i'll just settle with this.  My insecurities. I have too many of them.  I think I have trailed of the road to my destiny. I wonder how will I ever get back on it again. Oh God, please help me in my time of need. Bless me with your Holy Spirit and please protect all that I cherish and all that I will cherish.  Amen.

     PLUS         EQUALS     

Yes...I am on the verge of tears! No just kidding! =D

I was feeling down yesterday so I decided to go shopping. Yes, this happy drug is now suitable for men too.  So I decided to go and buy some facial products since I was running low of them anyways.  Guardian was having a super sale and these L'oreal products were on 20% discounts!! I've never bought L'oreal products before (yes...I'm humble and not a money spender kanasai).

Ever since I came back to Malaysia my complexion went from shitty to just plain ma de kill me please. In other words I went from dark to darker.  I've been meaning to do something about it and finally I have.  I bought this White Activ Cleansing Foam and I works wonders on the skin.  I then realised that I needed a toner to keep my pores tight so I got this Pure & Matte Toner which once again was fantastic.  I almost felt the effects immediately. That or I was just being a gullible shopper and pretended to fake it.  I was reading the back of the box and it said for best results use Pure Matte Anti-Regreasing Moisturising Gel.  I believe the second statement of me being a gullible shopper is starting to turn true. I bought it.  No regrets though. Oh and to top it off I bought myself some mud clay hair styling mixture from Uber Men.  Still, no regrets.

*Clunk Clunk* 

What's that noise?

*Clunk Clunk*

Oh it's my wallet, lets see why is it making that noise? Oh....right...all I have are coins in there.

............... (A few minutes later Ryan realizes that he's broke)...........

Oh shit!

Any takers on being my sugar momma?

Once again it's been a hectic month.  Not only did I celebrate my bday in court, my colleagues ended up finding out it was my bday (something I didn't want them finding out...damn you Facebook). I have lots of photos to load up as well, sorry for not posting anything up lately.  Work has been so very tiring to the point where I just want to sit on the toilet bowl all day and stare at the wall.

Lets catch up on what I've been doing lately...

Joanne's Surprise Bday -- also May/June

We were all supposed to plan a surprise bday at KLCC park for Joanne.  I think we were planning on hiding in the bushes and jump out and surprise her, but we ended up hiding in a restaurant.  I still think my idea of holding our breathes underwater till she arrives would have been so much cooler.  I mean wouldn't it be great to find Joanne's friends all floating around? heheh

We wanted to sing the bday and we happened to find a couple sitting on the steps playing their guitars.  So we kindly asked them if they could sing and play their guitars.  They were so nice to agree and we all shared cakes. Here are some pictures...

(Afterwards, we decided to go to SS2 and yam-cha)

(Desserts!)

(Yeah....I dunno what to say about this picture...)

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MELAKA TRIP 2008 ---May/June

Decided to pay a visit to Melaka around May since I've never really been there and they have alot of Portuguese--Chinese cultural things .  Here are some of the things I witnessed first-hand.

(how would you return food once your've eaten it anyways?)

(sour face on because they thought I couldn't eat pork at the dim sum restaurant...kanasai)

(Good Food!)

(On the way, Emily decided to pose)

(The boys in the back all thinking the same thing...are we there yet?)

(Now Master Alphonsus will demonstrate his ultimate killing technique "Bubble death")

(AYA! 2 are left...who's the culprit?)

(Found it.... =.='')

(The entrance to Jonker Street...really cool!)

(Jonker street before beer.....and after a couple =D )

(Eating at a famous chicken rice ball shop...I think that's what it's called..Famous Chicken Rice Ball =S )

(Tryin' to imitate the statue, think Emily did a better job =D )

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In search of good food -- July

I'm now known as the FFK King to Vivi.  It's not my fault! I was busy with work.  Lately I'm so engrossed in my work that I don't even feel like going back home after my shift is done.  I just want to work work work...

After promising Vivi that I'd go see her she said she'd take me to a really nice place where they have lots of good tit-bits.  Way to go Vivi, winning a man's heart with food! 

(Vivi.... =D  )

(I forgot what this was called, otak-otak I think...really good stuff!)

(I just love this painting! Apparently it's from Melaka...I want to go and buy one!)

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Happy Birthday--- August

I got many birthday wishes but it was quite sad since on that day itself I had to appear and testify. For a few minutes I felt like it was me who destroyed their marriage. But then I realized I've been through a lot over the years.  Always being alone really does make you realize that you can't trust anyone in this world but yourself.  No matter what there will always be someone there to betray you because there is so much temptation in this world. 

Here was how the sky looked like on August 28,2008...

(The sun setting looked like an eye watching something)

(Pretty sky...)

(I thought this was absolutely beautiful, what a perfect day)

(haha something Emily drew)

It was pretty lonely till the 29th.  I wanted to get a message or call from you really badly but I kept on pushing it away from my mind.  Then it appeared a nice Happy Birthday Ryan!  Lately I'm able to talk to you and not feel sad.  Instead I feel happy and though the memories are quite fresh in my mind I am able to look you in the eye and smile. 

It's good to know that we can still talk and hopefully laugh. I wonder if there will ever be a place in time where I can call you butterfly.  Maybe it is just wishful thinking!

Malaysian Politics.....

A little boy goes to his dad, a Datuk and asks, 'What is Politics?'
 
The Datuk Dad says, 'Well son, let me try to explain it this way: I am the head of the family, so call me The Prime Minister. Your mother is the administrator of the money, so we call her The Government.
  
We are here to take care of your needs, so we will call you The People. The Maid, we will consider her The Working Class.
  
And your baby brother, we will call him The Future. Now think about that and see if it makes sense.

So the little boy goes off to bed thinking about what his Datuk Dad has said.

Later that night, he hears his baby brother crying, so he gets up to check on him. He finds that the baby has severely soiled his diaper. So the little boy goes to his parent's room and finds his mother sound asleep.
 
Not wanting to wake her, he goes to the Maid's room. Finding the door locked, he peeks in the keyhole and sees his father in bed with the Maid.
 
He gives up and goes back to bed.

The next morning, the little boy says to his Datuk father, 'Dad, I think I understand the concept of politics now,'
 
The Datuk father says, 'Great son! Tell me in your own words what you think politics is all about.'
 
The little boy replies. 'The Prime Minister is screwing The Working Class while The Government is sound asleep. The People are being ignored and The Future is in deep shit.'

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Well wasn't that entertaining?! In a way its sort of true that the current fiasco happening within the political world of Malaysia has taken a turn for the worst.  Not only does the country have to deal with its people protesting about the food and fuel price hike (I call these the 2 F's ---fuck ups=D) but there are also allegations thrown around about murder and politicians. Oh the scandal!

Things at work have been rather dull.  I woke up super later today. Sorry Priscilla and Sheryl! =(  I have 3 alarm clocks in my room.  One right next to me, the other 5 feet away and the last one is another 5 feet away.  Why one might ask for such a retarded idea to be put into play? Because Ryan is a heavy sleeper and he needs to get his lazy ass up for work at 5 in the morning! Roar!  Guess what happened to day? ALL 3 OF MY ALARM CLOCKS DIDN'T GO OFF!! What are the chances of that happening??? Sigh....I didn't even take a shower to work! But I guess it's okay since i took a late night shower beforehand.

Life is somewhat alright.  I'm happy with my job. I'm happy with the way things are. I'm still trying to heal all the pains of the past. I'm not sure how long I'll be in Malaysia but for now let me enjoy life to the fullest.  I don't have any obligations. I can go everywhere and anywhere.  Speaking of going places.  Yeahhh I'm off to Bangkok, Cambodia, Turkey, and the UK prettty soon after I get my bonus =D.

Ever blown soap bubbles? They're great aren't they?  Soap bubbles are like life and chances.  You only get one unique bubble and they strive to fly as high as they can to reach the sky.  I guess that's like me in a way, a soap bubble wanting to fly as high as I can.  I want to reach space! I want to put my foot on the doors of heaven and shout "I am here!....okay bye now"

A couple of weeks back I was having dinner at Kwai Sun near Taylor's with my friends and I decided to drop by a bit early.  As I was waiting outside the restaurant there was a commotion on the opposite street involving a couple, I think they were Malay.  She was crying her heart out and the guy,obviously her boyfriend, just stood there staring at her blankly.  I don't know why, but my heart started to break seeing this type of situation occur before my eyes.  It was so heart wrenching and pain stakingly hard to watch.  They disappeared out of the corner of my eye and I decided to take a walk to settle my heart and my mind.  Why was I so influenced in seeing them fight, cry, and hit each other?  Was it because I understood that woman's feelings?  The moment I saw her face I knew what had happened or the general idea of it.  She had the look of confusion, the impression as to why someone can do something like this to her, she had the look of being betrayed.  I really felt sorry for the two of them, especially for the woman who looked to be suffering the most.  It just made me think about my past.  I'm so thankful that I'm able to stand on my own two feet once again.  It truly is a blessing that I am able to patch back my world and make it stronger once again. Go Ryan! Fighter of Love! 

The other day I was at Pyramid and I just happened to go into this pharmaceutical store. It wasn't Guardian or Watson's. It was some Chinese version of it.  I was browsing around hoping to find something that could catch my eye. I had the munchies to just buy something that day =p.  Well I came round the corner and something definitely did catch my eye!  It was hard not to laugh at what I saw.  Here we have a multinational company promoting one of its products. Fair enough.  What they were promoting?  Exactly this...

                                           (Check out the wordings at the top)

And another one....

                                         (This time the wordings at the bottom)

Imagine! I can be as horny as a goat after taking a couple of these things! Oh yes Ryan, that's the way to a woman's heart.  10 points.  I'd love to check out their customer's testimonials.  

A little too gross I know.  So to take a lighter note on things here's just some pictures I took with my friends until I can come up with something interesting to write about again...enjoy!

Ah yes now I remember what I wanted to say =D 

I was at Pavillion, KL with Sandy and Atsuyo and while Sandy was on the phone she happened to steal my phone away as well.  Not sure why she wanted two phones, but I found the reason out when she showed me this.  I've never seen myself photographed trying to pimp out a lady so it really came as a surprise to me when she showed me just how much of a retard I looked like.

I was hanging out with Shazan as well and we were looking around for some booze.  We ended up getting Jack Daniels (tastes really good with a cream soda by the way...), but before paying for it I just had to snap this picture.  Isn't it great?  Looks like this bottle is looking out for its gay community.

(Check out the last phrase..Love Juice anyone?)

Sigh I can't blog anymore...it's too tiring...I have so many things to talk about.  Anyways I'm gonna end this with my ambitions.  I'm going LIVE ON AIR JULY 1st. Please support me everyone!

Wow....

It's been such a long time since I've blogged.  How are you guys? Wait...p(=.='')p....I doubt any of you are reading this anyways. So...how are you Ryan?  Well things have taken a huge turn around for me since my arrival back to KL.  Lets take a look shall we? 

                                                                                                       I guess the best way to describe my arrival back would be like a trip to hell/heaven and back again.  Lets see I guess my story can be traced back to when I was in the UK with my now ex-girlfriend.  But, before I plaster you with my atrocities and scandals that I "supposedly" did I'll need to tell you a little bit about myself and my life in the country of my fore fathers.

I've stayed in the UK several times before hand but this was my very first time bringing along extra baggage.  That's right.  Good 'ol Ryan is bringing someone back with him to Europe.  This might be a bit of a shock for my friends in Europe since they know that I never bring extra baggage along with me and I never ever am happy about bringing along extra baggage.  But this was an exception. 

Anyways...we were there for a year and I was loving it.  The cities, the people, the travelling.  I thought I had it all really. I never once thought of going back to Malaysia.  I actually thought I'd get married and settle down in Europe =S   But things took a turn when I had to make a decision on whether or not to go back and live there or separate and stay back.  I was actually quite confused about the whole situation, but in the end...

I promised and made a vow that I will come back to Malaysia and find a nice job, settle down and marry.  Promise, mind you.  My grandfather more than anyone else taught me the values of life and how to treat a lady. 

                            "Promises Ryan, are never made to be broken. Keep to them. die by them, and if you must take your entire life

                             to fulfil them.  If you promise a woman the world you are only asking for trouble, but if you promise her that you will

                             try...it will mean the world to her and will forever rest her head on your shoulders."

                                                                                                                                                                          --Grandpa 1989--

And so I lived and died by this code making only a few promises and making sure that I kept to them.  Little did I know that my promise to you would take me on a journey that would test me and strip me naked of my pride, joy, and love. 

Keeping my promise to you I left it like that I decided to ask the opinions of a few friends in Malaysia. 

Ryan:  Hey listen, I've decided to come back to Malaysia.

Peeps: What?! Why? Malaysia sucks man why do you want to come back?

Ryan:  Nah man, I'll be fine I'll get a good job and I'll settle down there. Problem is what kind of job can I get what doesn't require Malay?

Peeps: Wei, all jobs here require Malay lah. You think you can survive here meh? Die lah you if you come back!

Ryan: Don't worry if I'll die or not okay I want to be happy and I want Ying to be happy so I'm moving back.  Be happy I'll get to hang out like the good 'ol days.

Peeps: Actually....I'm moving out of Malaysia.

Ryan: What? Why?

Peeps: Fuck lah this country. New Zealand is much nicer.

Ryan:  Go to Singapore then.  At least the pay is better and you'll be closer to home =D

Peeps: Blady Fool you think Singapore so nice one meh?  Even worse than Malaysia! Have to pay tax, got shitty jobs there, somemore they damn kiasu. 

Ryan:  .....Okay. Well I don't care I'm gonna head back.  Remember that you create your own happiness wherever you go so don't be running away from your problems alright?

Peeps:  Ok whatever. Just make sure you buy something for me when you come back.

Ryan: (=.='')

Things didn't look so bright for me with my friends even telling me that I had little chance of surviving in Malaysia, but I didn't care. I knew that if you put your mind to it you can create your own happiness and your life will always turn out for the better and that's exactly what I did. 

                                                        "The footsteps towards happiness always begin with your own"

                                                                                                                =D  ---Ryan 2008---  =D

 And that was exactly what I did. I took my first steps into fulfilling my dreams.  Again, little did I know what I was getting myself into.  Packed my stuff, booked my ticket and said my goodbyes.  Or so I thought.....

Little did I know that you would break your promise to me...the promise of never looking back. Of never going back to your old self. Tsk tsk tsk silly Ryan to believe you.   Silly Ryan to promise that he would come back and silly Ryan to promise to try and make it work. Ai Ai Ai what did you get yourself into Ryan?!

 My heart turned into paper and slowly burned away.

Anyways, that was all in the past.  You can't imagine what it was like to know what I knew and still fly back with you sitting right next to me. Couldn't even kiss your properly without thinking about it.  Aha! Didn't think I would find out did you now?  There's so much shit I know about you that you didn't know I can't believe I put up with it.

                                            "No matter what you do, the truth will sooner or later come back and find you. Smile, its Karma."

                                                                                                                             =D   --Ryan 2008---  =D

Besides being broken down to my very core.  I also had an internal struggle with myself.  What do I do now? My driving force, my energy, the one that gave me meaning to life just went and took a shit on my head and flew off!   Where do I go from here on out? So I prayed. God is just fantastic.  He's the one person that will never let you down.  He's always there for you if you need him, provided that you do your part.  Proud to say that till today I've become quite the church-goer. =D

Speaking of people letting me down.  Coming back to Malaysia, I thought handling one betrayal was enough I didn't know that I would be having another one right around the corner.  As most people know my family's not that great.  Parents have been having a messy divorce case for 5 years now and it's just reaching its climax.  One thing I am very firm on was the fact that I didn't want to get involved with this case nor involve my sister.   I asked both my parents not to involve us in any way possible.  They agreed ofcourse.  I mean come on, we are the results of marriage.  Why must we be punished as well for their mistakes?  Sure we can support them in any way possible, but just don't get us involved.  But, do they keep their promise?

Why mom why?? Argh!

I found out through my father that my mother is suing me for property I never wanted in the first place.  Her own son! I was so devastated.  The one woman I thought would always be there for me. Would never betray me.  Would never even think of hurting me does this to me.  Well basically I couldn't handle it.  It was all too much in such a short span of time.  I couldn't trust anyone.  The only buddy I could look up to, Shazan!  Though he didn't know much about the entire situation, he's my brother no matter what. 

 (Bros before hoes)

He was there to support me in my time of need and I wish and I know that whenever he's in the shit's I'm gonna be there for him.  Sweeeet dude...

That was the end of my story with women. I've had it with them.  They're so fickle minded and obscure of what they want or what they do.  If I could sum them up in one picture it would be this.

Ok I'm gonna get a lot of angry females now. But, I'm sorry okay! I'm going through some major shit right now gimme a break.  I'll be a gentlemen in 5 minutes. Okay, anyways lets move onto a new topic shall we?

Jobs! Man, I am so unlucky with jobs in Malaysia its not even funny.  (I get the feeling someone is laughing).

Well, I knew that it was going to be hard and it was hard.  I struggled and could not find something that was suited for me.  Banks, event companies, gigolos (just kidding....well maybe) you name it I went for their interviews and tests.  It came to a point where my interviewers even suggested that I move to Singapore and find work there.  They pitied me! Not a good idea to pity me.

I'm capable of making my own success.  But being the cheap loser that I am I took their advice anyhow and went to Singapore for interviews.  In summary, it didn't go too well.  The pay was too low, there wasn't a strong career progression, and most of all they didn't like the fact that I was Malaysian (which I'm sorta now if you just listened to me). I seriously that I was just gonna kill myself! Argh! Kidding!  Like hell I'd do something like that....hmmm

                                                                                                                                                                                   (Smoky: The fuck you want bitch?!)

I did accept a job though in Singapore and was planning on moving there. But, I'm glad to say that I am still in Malaysia. I turned them down. Why you might ask?  What is Ryan thinking? Does he want to be a jobless asswipe the rest of his life?

No, I have a job now. It's a fantastic job.  It was a job I thought that would only appear in my dears.  I'm now a radio dj working for Astro! Isn't that cool? Ryan, a radio dj! I have the most crappiest voice out there and 12 million Malaysians are gonna get pissed just listening to it. Awesome!

Not only that. Oh oh oh I'm happy too! I've got great friends now.  There's Sandy, Shazan, Tracy, Jane, Sze May (*smirk), Emily (double poke), all my church friends....all my highschool buddies....college mate...everyone!

(Sandy and I) 

Well this is just a short introduction to my 3 months here.  It's been hectic, I wish and pray that it will slow down just a bit so I can pick up the pieces of my life that still remain and build it up again.  Thanks for being there for me everyone. You guys are the best.  Stay tuned for my next one at the end of June!